Nice way to start a weekend

You may remember over christmas break, I was in Florida with my folks. They'd asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I said I really needed some new pants. We hit the outlets, and they were extremely generous and bought me several pairs of pants. A couple were size 12's, but mostly they were 10's (i started this journey firmly into 14s). I hoped to get a few months out of them, and didn't let my parents spend too much money on me, knowing that these were (hopefully) a temporary stop on my way to wherever I land.

Well, some of the 10's are starting to get roomy. But today was an interesting development...

I had bought one pair of pants (i bought, not my parents) that day, that were too snug to wear at the time, but they were pretty, and on sale for $12, and I figured if I never got there, it wouldn't be a huge waste. I tried them on this morning, and could not believe my eyes.

I looked skinny.

First of all... I should have tried these pants 3 weeks ago. I already need to take the waist in. But the rest of it all fits well in the hips and thighs, so they still generally fit. But I could not believe how good they looked. I felt like an "after" from "What Not To Wear", where the transformation is so huge, it's like a different person. (Yup, there's my shout out to Stacy London, of whom most of you know I'm a huge fan).

I went up to many of my colleagues with whom I'm friendlier and know my story (and read this blog!) and announced, "Look at this! Can you believe it?" and all echoed my observation... these pants made me look skinny.

The other day, when those older pants fit, that was great, but this was different. I'm not even sure I can explain why. It just kind of felt like I'd finally gotten to a new me. Maybe there's more to go, and before long, I may be in 8's or who knows after that. But I know that I saw today that even though I had it in my head that my ultimate goal is 30 lbs, there are going to be plenty of stops along the way that I'm going to look great when I get to.

I'm off to Long Island this weekend, where I'll also see my cousin, whom I blogged about in November. I'm excited that both of us will get to visit our families and we can each show off all our progress towards our healthier goals. I expect he's going to knock our socks off!

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Getting back on track after being sick

Okay, here's the thing. I was sick last week, as you know. And I traveled this weekend, and ate kind of crappy here and there, and felt airplane-bloated, etc., when I came home late Sunday night. I weighed myself Monday morning. I didn't love what I saw. I got too busy to post yesterday, and decided I'd see what I weighed on Tuesday morning, when the bloat went down.

Much better.

So, even though it's technically not my Monday morning weigh in (and I'm fessing up about that), it's a legitimate weigh-in, and it honestly motivates me more, so, whatever helps me, I'm using. I'm sure you can all support me in that.

Here we are:

This week's weigh in -0.2 lbs
Total weigh in: -16.1 lbs.

I went to pilates last night -- the first work out since I'd gotten sick. I was in good shape until about 55 minutes into it (Maria had even commented on my great form during the hour) and all of a sudden, during an exercise, Maria said, "I don't know what just happened, but I just watched you turn pale before my eyes". I felt it, too. I'd just hit my limit. I'd worked hard, but didn't have enough in me to get through the full hour. Sure, we were basically done, but still, it felt like a little bit of a "I wasn't ready yet" calling. The good news is I'm feeling better today, and I hope to be at 100% soon enough!

I'm still a little worried about how being sick will impact my current goal (3 more weeks to lose almost 4 lbs) but I'm refocused on it, and hoping for the best.

On to an update about how I'm feeling about my progress so far:

I've struggled a little bit with the statements of "I haven't weighed this amount since ________". For whatever reason, I just don't have much of a good tracking of my weight beyond the last 4 years or so. I can look back at pictures, but it's not the same thing. Honestly, I'm not even sure I could tell you what I weighed in high school or college. (High School - less. College - more some years, less others). My goal weight is in line with what I weighed in grad school, which is the last time I remember feeling like I was happy with how my body looked. It may have had something to do with having no money to buy food, sure... but still.

So, I'm left with hazier hallmarks of where I'm at. Today, I was pleasantly reminded of one. I wore today a pair of pants that I bought when I started working with my current employer, 6 years ago. I didn't wear them for long, as I gained some weight early on (they brought lunch in every day for us for a few months during a crisis-clean-up, including peanut butter cookies every day.... yum). For whatever reason, I kept these pants, and today, when looking around for something to wear, I thought I'd give them a shot. Not only did they fit, they fit well. Even roomy.

I don't know what my next hallmark of progress to my past weights will be, but that one felt good today.

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Sick Sucks and Six Months

So, my illness continues, and I finally got to a doctor today and got some drugs (nasal steroids, mainly), that should take a few days to kick in. Until then, my cough, stuffiness, and fever have kept me out of things the past week, as I expected. I didn't make it to the gym, as I'd hoped (lucky I made it out of bed a few days).

This week's weigh in: +0.4lbs
Total weigh in: -15.9 lbs.

Not as bad as I expected, given my diet of comfort food and my low energy week.

Here's an interesting point of fact:

Tomorrow is 6 months since I started this. I can't really believe that. Six months. Do I feel good about what I've accomplished so far? Sometimes, yes, sometimes, no. Mainly yes, but still realize I have much work ahead of me to get through the next 8 months to my ultimate goal. I know it's attainable, and I know I've done a ton, and my life is different than it would have been without taking these steps.

I thank you all for the support you've given me so far, and don't leave me now, just because I'm in a sickness rut... I'm not contagious! :-)

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Where I've been?

Sorry I've been out of touch... I'll explain.

First of all:

This week's weigh in: +0.4lb
Total weight loss: -16.3 lbs.

Not a huge surprise, really.

This week, however, I'm bracing for bad.

I've been sick (I was a little bit last week, but much worse this week, since Monday) and it's been kicking my butt a bit. It's a cough/cold/respiratory thing, but my appetite is also all out of whack, and I keep thinking maybe I'm hungry and should eat, and I learn soon after that's not the case.

As a result, I've been a bit more focused on comfort foods and grazing, and I haven't been making great choices (or at least ones that won't lead to some ramifications). We went out with great friends last night, and my indulgence was a bowl of cream of cauliflower soup (and some very yummy salmon). Didn't have dessert, but had cocktails.

Tonight, just some soup and an ice pop to make my throat feel better. And a shot of some super gross tasting medicine.

I've got a fun evening out on Saturday up in NH coming up, so I'm trying my best to get better before then so that we can enjoy our evening and the rest of the weekend.

I *did* go to pilates on Monday and I hope to go to Zumba tomorrow and power pilates on Saturday if I am feeling up for it.

But I'm bracing for a big "+" weighin next week. Sorry to be disappointing!

I hope you're all feeling well, and those of you suffering through the snowmageddon!

Thanks for reading!

Spinning around and around...

As I planned, I tried spinning for the first time this week. I thought I'd take some time to talk about that experience.

Have you read about people who try spinning for the first time and say, "It was amazing! I'm so pumped!"?

I wasn't one of those people.

If you're not familiar with spinning, it's a high intensity hour of riding on bikes that allow you to increase the tension, making the pedaling harder or easier. At the direction of the instructor, you'll stand up, sit down, do that in bursts of energy, or gradual increases like a hill. And lots of standing up and pedaling when it's really hard.


The hour had pluses and minuses.

Minus:
I didn't really "Stand Up".

Plus:
I didn't throw up. And I didn't give up.

Minus:
The saddle hurts.

Plus:
I had been wearing bike shorts, so it didn't hurt as much as it could.

Minus:
My husband set up my bike with all the settings for me to use it. I wasn't sure he was right.

Plus:
The instructor made all the right changes to the bike for me. :-)

Minus:
An hour was way too long for me to not imagine bailing.

Plus:
They have 45 minutes classes on different days.

Minus:
The class was filled with a lot of hard core people that were kind of intimidating with how they were all able to do everything.

Plus:
The instructor (Laura) was really helpful and attentive to me, knowing I'd never done this before.

Minus:
It was really hard. I was sweating a ton. My foot slipped out of the pedal thingy twice. Maybe 3 times.

Plus:
I survived.

Will I go again? I think so. Maybe to the 45 minute class on Sunday. I figure I have to try it 3 times before I give up totally.

But it's not my new found passion-at-first-spin, and I don't know that I'll get there. And that's okay.

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Just the kind of weigh in I needed.

Feeling very good about this week's weigh in (especially after my last blog post). I also hit both my current Weight Watchers goal (the second one I set) and achieved a WW milestone: 10% weight loss!

This week's weight loss: -1.4 lbs

Total weight loss: -16.7 lbs

That's over 10% weight loss AND my BMI (which is not a perfect measure for everyone, I know, but directionally helpful) is also down more than 10%.

I set my next WW goal less aggressively, just to get me to my next real short term goal. I'd like to make sure I'm solidly at -20lbs by Week 30. That's 6 weeks from now, to lose 3.3 lbs. Now some may say "That's no problem - why not go for something harder?" But I'm definitely still feeling like I could revert or plateau, and I honestly think that a goal of half a pound a week is achievable, but certainly hasn't always been the case. So, if I can get to 2o lbs by Week 30 (March 15th), I will really feel like I can focus my last half of this journey on the dreaded "Last 10 Pounds" that everyone struggles with...

For a change this week, I'm thinking about trying a spin class, maybe even as early as tonight. Some good friends have recently started spinning (albeit at 5 in the morning with a mean instructor) and seem to be enjoying it... of course, Robert does it, but he's in a different class of human when it comes to stuff like that, so I can't really use him as a barometer of whether or not *I'll* like it. Or survive it. So I hope to have a report on that later on in the week. The only challenge for trying it tonight is it would be before my pilates reformer class, and so it would give me a short break to shower and clean up before that class... maybe I'll make it?

Thanks for reading!